I don't even really know me, so I don't expect you to.

If you really knew me
you'd know the first time I used the back of a page in my journal was to write this.
If you really knew me
you'd know that I hold on too tight
that I'm not afraid of the dark but
I still sprint up the basement stairs.
That I wear big sweatshirts
and no, I'm not depressed...
well maybe I am sometimes, but I just like to wear huge sweatshirts
If you really knew me
you'd know my hair is incredibly soft
and yes, please stroke it, play with it, no it's not weird I promise
if you really knew me 
you'd know I'm a theater kid through and through
but I do have personal space
and I'm at least semi-normal
and have yet to be a lead in a show.
If you really knew me
you'd know I'm sick of people thinking
I'm too young or innocent or kind
This summer, a director didn't cast me as Belle in Beauty and the Beast
because I wasn't mean enough.
not mean enough to play a Disney princess..... ouch.

Hi, I'm Tiffany. Part of my brain is still named Korra.
I'm 5'4 and a half, but every nurse that measures my height tells me a smaller number.
I won't tell you my weight,
but know that it's average, despite the world telling me the number is too big.

If you really knew me, 
you'd know my hearing loss is only a disability
to the people I'm begging to pay for my college tuition.
If you really knew me
you'd know I'm waiting for my chance to show who I am
but that I'm not patient.
If you really knew me,
you'd know I have old lady hands, dry and shaky
and yes, I did try lotion. Thank you for the suggestion.
If you really knew me,
You'd know I blush a whole heck of a lot.
Actually, you know this even if you don't really know me.
Yep. I'm aware that my face is the precise shade of a tomato.
It's not exactly under my control.
If you really knew me
You'd know my eyes look brown from far away
but but if you look close, you'll see they're full of green and have flecks of gold.
If you really knew me
you'd know that if I wasn't so worried about being sensible
I'd be a zoo veterinarian
I'd dye my hair black
I'd wear bright red lipstick every day
if you really knew me
you'd know that I'm anxious
and I physically can't let a cut heal without pulling the scab off
and I've had my license for a full year now
and have used it maybe twice
and had a panic attack both times
but that I'm hopeful.
If you really knew me
you'd know I love getting asked on dates
but I don't mind being the one to ask if I have to
If you really knew me
you'd know I'm the bishop's daughter
but as long as you like football or Monty Python,
you two will get along just fine.
If you really knew me
you'd know I hate talking about myself
but when I start it's hard to stop
because there's a whole lot to tell.
My personality takes some explaining.
And if you really knew me,
I guess you'd know that.

That would be nice.